Pain

The Thorns of Freedom

The thorns

Of grief and woe

Of trial and misery

Of shame and doubt

Of darkness, hopelessness, helplessness

 

The pain

Of laceration

Of piercing

Of lancing

Of pressure, puncture, sunder

 

The relief

Of baggage

Of irritation

Of criticism

Of angst, distress, mistrust

 

The freedom

Of peace

Of hope

Of faith

Of the scarred, healed, restored

 

26/10/2014

The Line

A line stretched out before me

A line running east to west

A line named grief and sadness

A line I don’t intend to cross

 

A line stretched out beside it

A line running parallel

A line of frustrated anger

A line whose beckoning, I quell

 

A line and then another

A line as far as eye can see

A line I mean to skirt around

A line traverser? No, not me

 

A line running east to west

A line unending either way

A line of infinite extension

A line unskirtable today


Today, one line I’m crossing

Today, when beckoned, I will come

Today, I’ll journey through completely

Today, feel pain and anger, some

 

Today, I crossed a line

Today, I plodded through

Today, I felt the anguish

Today, I’m weary and confused

 

Today, no longer feel afraid

Today, no longer bound to run

Today, I’m whole, embracing both

Today’s grief and joy within the son

 

Today, I live in victory

Today, I live as me

Today, I embrace everything

Then move on, another day to see

 

 

11/9/2014

Wisdom, Maturity, Growth

I was once asked what made me grow. My instant response was, trauma and pain.

James in the Bible says testing grows endurance, and when endurance is done we are complete.

Chuck Swindoll says:

By accepting life’s tests and temptations as friends, we become men and women of mature character. There is no shortcut, no such thing as instant endurance. The pain brought on by interruptions and disappointments, by loss and failure, by accidents and disease, is the long and arduous road to maturity. There is no other road…Periodically, however, we will find ourselves at a loss to know what to do or how to respond. It’s then we ask for help…When we have responded as we should to life’s blows, enduring them rather than escaping them, we are given more maturity that stays with us and new measures of wisdom which we are able to draw upon for the balance of our lives.

Endurance doesn’t necessarily mean doing nothing though. But persisting until the trial is through or settled. Maturity and wisdom for the balance of my life. That’s what I want: maturity, wisdom, balance! I guess I will count the trials of life a joy (not enjoy the trials though), ask for help to learn how to manage, work through and sometimes even change them because in the end I will be able to become mature, wise and BALANCED.

Do you want that too? Balance?